looking for new home to re-home amy

have come to a decision to re-home amy to a better home, than what we can provide to her...have been thinking about this for a long long time but the thot of losing her is painful...but now i believe re-homig her will be better for her:

1. no thanks to the horrible weather of rain and thunder storm, her fear of the thunder has gotten worst, such that she would scratch the front door DAILY irregardless rain or shine...never mind that the door is ruined, since the day we moved it, it was already ruined by her and we have accepted it...but she scratched so hard until her paws bleed...and turn the place into a murder scene...initially i would let her be, thinking that she would not do it on the good days so at least her paws could heal...but she is now doing it everyday, so the bleeding is also getting worst as she never allow the paws to heal before she would inflict the woulds on herself again....so now, we have to resort to putting her inside her crate all day long until we are home! this was something i was against of doing...but there was nothing else i could do to stop her scratching the door...we have put up "obstable course" of chairs etc. to block her from getting to the front door...with gabe's children chairs from ikea which she is afraid of...that did not stop her from jumping over them, while we all had the problem of stepping over these while carrying the sleeping kids to get out of the apartment, or to get in!!

2. with two kids and no helper at home, we are simply exhausted just caring for the kids...i am having problem finding time to walk her...and weekends are always filled with activities for the kids and then church on sunday, i hardly have the time to bring her to the park and to her favourite dogrun...if i do not need to crate her all day long, it will still work as she would have the free roam of the place during the day and night...but now that we have to crate her, she will need to be walked...no longer can she be a couch potato...

i feel sorry for her, sometimes she feels more like a prisoner at home, sometimes i catch her looking out to the world in the balcony, with that longing look and when i do have the chance to walk her, she would be jumping with joy all the way to the door...i love her very much, she is like my first child!! i never thot i would act on this re-homing her, never thot it would be us to do so...like giving up a prt of me....

when we first got her when she was a puppy, i broke down toilet training her during her first week with us, and i gave her to a friend with landed property...i missed her so much so i cried all day and night for days...and prayed for her return...i called my friend almost daily to see how she was...and when my friend told me that it was not working out between amy and her cat, and wanted to return to us, i was over the moon!!! after we got her back, i was determined to make it work, signed up for puppylove training school to teach her and myself basic commands etc. and it worked out so well...she is such a great dog, hardly make any sounds at home, sometimes we wondered and worried if she was able to bark at all but then she showed us what a beagle bay was...LOUD and such beautiful music :) when gabe was born, we discovered her gentle side with kids...she was more bullied by gabe niowadays than the other way around...even now, kris is starting to enjoy her presence...whenever she was around, kris stared at her and would start smiling and giggling at her....

omg...what am i doing...ming has been asking me if i was sure to want to go thru with this....this time, i must think with my head and not my emotion...it is for her good, and yes i am sure!! she needs a better home...i am only looking for home with the following conditions:

1. a home with existing dog(s) preferably beagles...so to keep her company....we dog-sit brownie before and amy really appreciated another 4-legged being at home to play with her...but she was still young at that time, i wonder if she still likes that...or...

2. a home with someone at home like 80% of the time...e.g. family with a maid/helper at home, retiree/elderly, SAHMs etc. so someone will be at home to keep her company...she seems to hate to be alone nowadays with her extreme fear of the rain and thunder...

so the search begins....and i hope God will provide a better home for her, one that she deserves...i do love you, amy...please forgive me...